"Yoyoism" I am getting Dizzy ... it is day 18

Blog Post created by dawn37 on Jan 21, 2010

Yoyo -  something that fluctuates or moves up and down, esp. suddenly or repeatedly.


“Yoyoism” This is my new word to describe my new life.  It blows my mind when I think about the rollercoaster I have been on since I quit smoking 18 days ago. The only thing worse than the first 3 days, was this past weekend.  


My days usually start out pretty tame, sometimes I end up being in an awesome mood & I can take on anything. Then out of the blue, I can do a complete 180 and be so out of my mind with rage or sadness, it makes me wonder if I might need some serious meds.  I know this rollercoaster is part of the healing process, but I will be very happy when this ride is over; of course I am assuming this will end someday.


In the mean time, I will accept that my life will be anything but calm and I can handle that…simply because there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  I cannot wait until that light gets brighter!


No matter how difficult this journey gets…I am going to keep going, because I have worked so hard to get here; I do not want to go back! Stay Strong People! Don’t smoke!