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Feelings after a call to mother dearest

coreinstincts
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I now know what is going on with me and I read it somewhere in this group before. It's called (missing the cigarette) but not wanting it but wanting it. that is where I am at right now. UGH, almost into 20 days and I am hitting this now and have been in this for a few days. What am I going to do, I am stuck where I am at and can't move forward in my life; the only thing adding up is days not smoked (DNS). I feel trapped in this house and in my life and this is not good for the depression that I go through and then I have to put on a good face for the people around me so that they don't know the situation that I am in because they really don't care to believe that I am truly sick.
(FML) sometimes I wish I wasn't here and no I wouldn't do anything to myself I just wish I wasn't here. Nobody Understands whats going through other persons head when they hit these manic lows, Sorry was just having a moment there after talking to my mother and I am not going to delete it, I need to voice these things and not hold them in it is no good for me, it actually hurts me in the end.

Thank you
Lee 18 DOF and NO I WILL NOT HURT MYSELF!!!

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hi my name is Lee and I am on the Quit because I had a close call and I love myself and my family to much to leave this earth this soon in my lifetime