I came home early from my friends house, the 1 that had back surgery last week. She doesn't really need much help and I'm not really sure why she wants me there. I think mostly for company and, I think, security because of my nursing background. It's been helpful for me though during these early days of my quit. She just wanted to go back to bed today so I came back home.
My breathing continues to get better though I'm still aware of it. My O2 sats have gone from 93 to between 97&98. I'm thrilled about that!
I found out the results of my CT scan online. The suspicious nodule and recommended further testing. I don't see my Dr. for 3 more weeks so I called his office and asked that they go ahead and order the Pet scan so he would have those results prior to my appt. The nurse said he's on vacation this week but had noted that we would just wait for my appt. before going on to the next step. I might be fine physically to wait, but mentally, I don't want to keep waiting. I refuse to live my life in fear, but why does dealing with healthcare always have to be so frustrating?
I'm still dealing with withdrawal but today is a little better than the past 2 days have been. The persistent feeling of having a hole in my chest and the brain fog. And the irritability. I'm using a 21mg patch with lozenges for when it's too horrible to bear. I'm really trying to limit the lozenges. I'm using about 6/day. I'm going to try to not use them next week.
I see that there are others here that are in their first week of EX. I am rooting for all of you! Let's do this together to make this our forever quits. Whenever my addiction tries to talk me into "just 1". I will make sure to "run the tape all the way through" to how bad every cigarette I smoked made me feel over the past 2 mo. And you can use my deteriorating health to motivate you. I have tried to quit so many times over the past 5-6 yrs. But I've never made that 100% commitment, and I've always failed. Learn from me. Smoking will affect your health, and it will continue to get worse.
Connie
