Day 1 tomorrow

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The 5 weeks I didn't smoke were probably the best weeks of my life. I could breath so much better (only so good though with copd), my cough was gone, I could do more at the gym. I was spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically so much better. The only problem was severe bloating and nausea which I blamed on the chantix. So I stopped the chantix and started smoking because I don't believe, with my anxiety and the ongoing, almost continual stress I deal with, that I can quit cold turkey. Well the 3 weeks I've been smoking have taught me that I can't smoke anymore. I feel like I'm breathing through a straw and I have several coughing fits a day. I'm embarrassed to leave the house. I've been so depressed that I haven't left the house or even showered for 3 days!

Well, I decided that the stomach issues were better than the respiratory ones so I started taking the chantix again in 4 divided doses instead of 2 and have had no stomach issues. I'm feeling so much better just knowing that I won't be smoking after today I finally got in the shower and will be going to the gym and an AA meeting tomorrow.

1 more reason-I found out last Mon. that I have breast cancer. I won't know my treatment plan until I see the 3 Drs. next week but I know that it's small and stage 1 so I'm real optimistic. I just know that not smoking will only help with the treatment.

I'm ecstatic about being back!

Connie