It’s amazing how I can do the same thing smoking or not smoking but I feel I can do if not better as a nonsmoker an I see that’s the way it’s constantly going to be I just feel soo astounded by this clarity that I am experiencing everything so bright and beautiful now life’s like so perfect my way has become unimaginable good for myself and my heart thanks everyone I’m never going to feed the monster again I gained nothing an I feel calm as myself the confidence that I have gained is just so wonderful I don’t know how to end the blog cause everything is so great an to feel like this is something I will never give up
