Here I am! Day 50.
Thank you for tagging me in the post congratulating me on my achievement. I didn't think that I would make it, but I did make a promise to myself that this quit was for life. So far, so good. Surprisingly the hardest part has been this overwhelming feeling of "I've gone this long, so I can clearly quit. One won't hurt." I guess I just didn't realize that the desire to go back to smoking would continue and be so difficult to tune out once I am triggered, but I am proud to say that I have not slipped once in 50 days. Reading the post about No Man's Land greatly helped me to realize that this is part of the journey and I am not alone in this feeling!
The most difficult part of my initial quit was the issue of constipation. Thank you to those of you who suggested insoluble fiber in the morning. That has SAVED ME. I highly recommend it to others who are having issues because it resolved within days.
As for now? Well the most difficult part of this journey is reminding myself daily why I quit smoking and that I should be proud of myself. I feel somewhat foolish admitting this, but multiple people in my life were pleading with me to quit smoking. Daily. It was so often that it was annoying. When I quit, I would get asked about it frequently and get a high five or some words of encouragement. Lately though, it really feels like no one cares. And then there's that voice in the back of my head saying "well they didn't really care about my quitting if they don't care to ask about my progress now." Trust me when I say that I know that is nonsense and just the cigarette talking. I need to remind myself that I quit for ME. Not for others to be proud of my progress. I need to remind myself that I did it for my health, financial savings and a ton more of other reasons. But I did make sure to mention to a few close family members and my boyfriend that I do like getting a pat on the back every once in a while and they are now more aware that I am someone who needs that external validation.
Kudos to all of you on your individual progress. I love reading your posts and comments and truly feel that this community is what I need to make sure I don't slip again. Thank you for your support! I hope that I can be of support to others in your time of need