I am telling on myself today. It is hard when the message is complete abstinence but I still need to give myself some praise.I started to attempt to do something about my smoking on 4/12/2020. I cannot say honestly that I was smokefree, but I have cut down by half of my usual smoking. This is more than I have ever done in 20 years of smoking. I have lied to myself and pretended I would try. Today, is the first day that I did not get up and smoke in the morning with coffee. I am sitting here with my coat on to go smoke (I have 6 cigarettes left and I do not intend to buy more), the patch on, and instead today is the first day that I am writing to you instead of going to smoke. Please be gentle as I am proud of myself for doing even this much!