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I am such a moron!

cfbays
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Wow! I can't believe me sometimes! I am such a moron! I went to Walgreens to buy my wife some Tylenol. As I sat there patiently waiting for the customer ahead of me to finish making her purchases I couldn't help but notice the huge display of cigarettes staring at me. It didn't take long for my favorite brand to call out to me, "Hey, Christopher, buy me!" I replied back to them, "Hell no, I don't do that anymore even if I did I don't have a lighter (stupid response)." Then some evil voice from out of nowhere said, "Yes you do, you have one in your gearbox in the car." So I said, "Ok, I guess it's ok to buy you then." I got to my car opened the pack, opened my gearbox and took out the lighter then out of nowhere a more sensible voice spoke to me and said, "What the f*** are you doing?" To be honest with you I didn't have a clue. I went to the store to get Tylenol and I didn't know how the hell I was sitting in my car with a pack of cigarettes and a lighter in my hand (well yes I did). My addiction took over and it did what it does and I let it. Well, I took those damn cigarettes and the lighter and threw that shit away without taking a puff but that was too damn close for comfort. I should have been more careful with where I was going. I have read about changing up from going places where I usually purchase cigarettes. Walgreens and gas stations where my suppliers and I was still visiting my dealer. That time I was only out of $9. Next time it may cost my quit and more. I have got to be more careful. This is not a joke this is my life. I can't afford to be such a moron.

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