Hard hard hard!!! Help!!

Blog Post created by brittneyd.rice on Jan 23, 2020

Yesterday my husband and I discovered that we have a severe leak under our house and it has completely flooded our crawl space. We dont do well completing projects together anyway, add on top we both quit smoking 2 weeks ago and the last 24 hours have been hard!!!! We had to contact our insurance company because it looks like the damage is pretty severe and so we were put in a hotel last night. My 2 teenage girls are in the middle of finals week at school, my kindergartener is sick, we have 3 dogs and a cat, My husband is out of town at the doctors today so I am dealing with contractors by myself (which I dont handle well) I am super stressed!!  It took everything I had to not smoke yesterday. Today I keep rationalizing with myself that I can go ahead and smoke and quit next week once things calm down again.  The ONLY thing stopping me is I don't want to be bitched at by my family. I cant tell you how bad I want to go to the store and buy some!! I am delaying it by minutes at a time so I can just keep going.  Why cant I feel better about my quit and be proud I can make it through stuff like this?? Why can't I NOT want to smoke! I know it wont 'help' me through this i really just dont want to feel so stressed about quitting AND stressed about all this other stuff. I need advice!