Goodnight Day 12

Blog Post created by breakthecurse on Aug 10, 2020

It’s time to put Day 12 to bed. 



This journey to freedom has not been easy. There are days when I feel fantastic and free, but most days I want to crawl out of my skin.

I want to run and hide.
I want to be anywhere but in my own reality.

I want to scream.

I want to vape.

I want coronavirus to end.

I want my normalcy back.

I want to vape.

I want my aging kitty to be ok.

I want to rush life to the end so that I have all the answers, NOW.

I want the little voice that tells me “just one vape” is ok to **********.

I’ve prayed to make it this far and I should be proud, yet instead I feel lost. I feel bored. I feel lonely. I feel defeated. 



I’ve hidden my vaping addiction for years from everyone I know and now I’m left to deal with withdrawals alone. 

Good night DOF12, thank you for holding me tightly.