Good Morning everyone, Today I am sitting at Newark Airport waiting for my trip to Florida, Unfortunately it is business not for fun. But as I sit here awaiting it is my 1st anniversary of being a non smoker. I want to thank everyone on this site for the support throughout the year. I cannot say I was on the site all the time but when I needed support I came in read and move forward. It as not been easy. It started off with so much anxiety of my health i have seen more doctors in the first 6 months of my quit that I have every seen in my live. I am happy to report I am pretty damn health. So for all is good. The love and support I received form my family and friends get me going mostly my Son and my mother. My poor mother I was at her house so much because I was so afraid of being home alone. Not thinking I would smoke it was thinking I could have a heart attack and be alone. Well I don’t know if it was just getting all my health test back clear, they hypnotist I saw to help with pain and anxiety or just allowing the nicotine to get totally out of my system. My pulmonologist said to me when I told her what was going on. The nicotine stays around for longer than most think she said by end of the year I will see things change and the anxiety Lessing. Is when the turnaround came and my aniexty mostly went away. I still have small anxiety attacks but nothing like before.
As I sit in the airport I am smiling because I wasn’t worried about how and where I was going to have my last cigarette before going through security or even if my flight is delayed. I don’t really care . I just want to get on the plane and get to where I am going because I am not a good flyer. Not afraid just hate the whole process. Ok a little claustrophobic and the idea of sitting next to someone in those small seats makes me dread flying. There are days where I think wow it is cigarette time and I just laugh and move one. They are less and less it is more when I do something that I used to do then have a cigarette
Life has been great since a year ago. It has been very freeing. Just not having to worry about where and when I can have a cigarette. Now a days there are more and more no smoking signs, even outside. Going places and not worry about if I can or cant smoke is awesome.
I could go on and on but I wanted to get this posted before it is my 2nd anniversary. I wanted to post yesterday but being on the plan and having to dive right into work once I got to my office I did not have time.
Once again thank you all for you support. Coming to this site was one of the best things I did a year ago. The elders and everyone else has help me greatly. Everyone enjoy you smoke free day!!
