I have tried to quit smoking for more than 15yrs. I have been able to go for months without a cigarette. My biggest downfall has always been the social smoking. I would not buy cigarettes, and would try to be strong around others that smoked. But we'd get to talking and the next thing I know I'm bumming one from whoever. I would feel bad about it, I mean cigarettes ain't cheap. But I would tell myself it's no big deal.
I met my best friend about 3yrs ago. She's a heavy smoker. Oh, we would visit and before you know it I'm bumming one, then two, then....I felt so bad about bumming that I started buying a pack and letting her hang in to it for me. When she came to visit, or vice versa, I wouldn't be bumming her's. So, guess what happened next. I know you can guess. Now I'm buying packs and keeping them. I'm smoking every single day now. I wake up thinking about smoking and I'm either thinking about smoking or smoking all day long. I'm shocked at how fast I fell back into a everyday smoking habit. I know now after all these years that I can't just cut down or only smoke now and then. I guess I've been in big time denial! And as I write this, I realize how much I sound like someone who's hopelessly addicted to alcohol or drugs. I don't think I ever really thought this addiction is the same! Glad I found this site! I think I have a better chance of quiting for good.
Thank you for reading,