Tomorrow is my first week tobacco free in about 3 years. This week has been very hard, much harder than expected. I was using ZYN pouches, they were like candy and I found that I was sneaking out of the house to get refills. I kept it a secret from my family, something I am not proud of, and I had this moment last Friday where I decided to snap out of it. I quit, cold turkey, flushed what pouches I had into the toilet. Last Saturday and Sunday were very hard. I was foggy, it felt like the light was on but nobody was home. Nothing seemed to help but it has been getting a little better each day. Today I almost broke down but I did not give in. I told myself that I had to make it to the next day, to make that first week of being tobacco free. I'm not a procrastinator, but when it comes to breaking down and giving in, I will procrastinate and do it tomorrow. And I'll keep telling myself that until the cravings are gone. Man, this is hard....
