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Ughhhh, NML

alysonoholic
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2 10 70

Boy, I was scootin' right along until night 49 and had that beer - since then the cravings seem to be more frequent than ever; I've definitely had to talk myself out of stopping by the smoke shop at least once in the past 10 days. 

But here I am, hours away from 60 DOF and hanging on with all my strength because I KNOW how good I've felt and all that extra money has been awesome and this is just making me more resilient, right?

I have an appointment tomorrow to get wax molds of my teeth/mouth and do a full consult on a permanent bridge, so I'm trying to stay calm and be happy that I'm moving on to the next step and I have options but I am wondering what this is ultimately going to cost. Even though my Mom is paying for it and had budgeted for 4 implants, there are limits to her generosity.

Anyway, I'm here again just trying to stay focused and enjoy being smoke free.

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This is actually my third wind on becomeanex.org - in February 2013 I quit for over 6 months before relapsing and realizing I was going to have to start all over again. And then that happened again. So, I'm back here to get at it. I've tried quitting so many times now it's not even that funny. I had basically been smoking since I was 13 (so, 25 years now) and was tired of letting something so stupid and expensive run my life to the extent that it did. In general, I am a pretty healthy person. I work out regularly, I eat well most of the time..it just seemed ridiculous to keep subjecting myself to being stinky and ultimately sick. I know cigarettes don't actually bring anything positive to my life, it was just hard to think of a future that didn't include the habits I had built around them. But now that I am 38 I am determined to live a healthy, well-balanced life and take more time to enjoy my home, my friends, my 2 cats, my city and a life free of cigarettes.