No joke, I am typing this with one hand as I wolf down a Subway sandwich with the other. I have some real downtime this evening so I thought I would catch up here while I can! This is going to be a bit disjointed but I want to get it all down so I apologize in advance.
To my complete surprise, the cravings have actually been pretty light so far and I'm definitely not complaining. Monday was tough; I had a work party after a full day's regular shift and MAN OH MAN, I thought so many times about asking one of my coworkers for a cigarette. I have been abstaining from drinking (which had become another unhealthy habit and was definitely happening at our Monday Night Football party) and will be for the foreseeable future because I really do want to guard my quit and I am so vulnerable when I've got a buzz! Then, yesterday, I spent 2.5 hours either driving to/from or waiting for an appointment that took less than 10 minutes but in that time I normally would have smoked at least 4 cigarettes and I had NONE. Today I got into it with one of my coworkers and normally my first response would have been to take a smoke break but afterwards I managed to calm down and move on with my day.
YES, I'm still getting cues from my brain that slyly say "oh hey, time for a smoke" but I'm not getting any overwhelming cravings...yet...and I'm not falling for it.
I am proud of myself so far. Just a little.
I've been using an app that rounds up transactions on my debit card and invests that money for my retirement (oy, I am starting so late for this,) today I decided that with the money I won't be spending on cigarettes I can now afford to bump that amount up by at least $5 a week.
I've been trying to be a more responsible adult-type person for a while now and I think I might be getting the hang of it, so far.