So, last week was my worst week since beginning this journey on September 1st, 2017. I honestly wasn't sure I would make it through. But, as many of the Elders said, it will pass. It did. I feel much calmer this week. I am in a good place and feel good about my quit. I protected it, even though I was doubtful that I could. I made it THROUGH.
Thank you for all of your advice. I read, read, read last week, articles from this site. I will continue one step, one day at a time. But I feel good.