just for a moment. I wanted that hit of dopamine, and the feeling of "all is well" that goes with it. I am feeling quite miserable today. I can't do most of what I want or need to do. I have an infected gum and sinuses, a swollen face, an upset stomach from the antibiotics, the hip on my GOOD leg is throbbing, as is the bad knee.
But - I know better. BUT - I understand now how easy that would be to happen. I actually feel too awful to go to the store - but even if I didn't, I am sure I wouldn't do that. I understood all too well that "just one" isn't possible.
But - just for a moment, I wished it wasn't so!