A "Day"mare

Blog Post created by Yess on May 15, 2017

It was not a dream, it actually happened.  Like a deer caught in the headlights, I'm still shocked that I came so close - after all I've blogged... what gives?  Yesterday, I needed to pick up a scrip at Rite Aid and it's where I would, in the past, buy a single pack of cigarettes when I needed to.  I usually bought by the carton (to save money!)  I am never tempted to buy when I'm at Costco because I know I won't go for ten packs!!!  As I was nursing some troubled feelings over an incident earlier, I wanted to buy a pack of cigs, I really wanted a cigarette - if I found a light!  I searched every nook and cranny of my car for a lighter.  At the end of those frenzied couple of minutes, no lighter and very deep breathing.  I felt confused that I would go that far and while those thoughts were taking place, I completely lost the urge to smoke!  I successfully navigated the store as I usually do and got back in my car grateful to have saved my quit. I'm still surprised that I didn't just think of buying a lighter too!  Maybe I'm too cheap?  No, it was my inner self who knew there was no lighter in the car, limiting the opportunity so that I would preserve my quit.  Stranger than fiction huh