I cannot believe that I am on day 16. I have never got this far before so very positive and is a testament to the process and systems of the EX site. The combination of education and support really does work! My cravings have dramatically reduced and I am only craving when I wake up and after meals mainly. Thanks to everyone for all your support so far.
Unfortunately I have times when I deal with pretty severe depression. Most of the time I am on the opposite end of the spectrum and take medication to hold me back. But when I am down I am really down. I have learned to cope well using medication, therapy and support groups but my best friend in dealing with this was cigarettes for a long time.
If you go to any psychiatrist, therapist or support group or 12 step meeting or anything similar worldwide, you will usually be greeted by coffee inside and an ashtray outside, with people that you know from spending time there at the ashtray, so it is a common crutch.
It feels very strange to not have this crutch and coping mechanism when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and feel sorry for myself. I have so much work to do and an exam on Thursday so really need to get my mojo back.
I have reached a point where my resolve is strong and im feeling good about my quit. I just wish I could get my motivation and energy back. Thanks for listening and a good weekend to all.
