Brain fog

[Verghese]

Day 5 and my spirit and resolve are still strong.  However my body and mind are just not cooperating.  I am studying my last 3 college subjects to get my degree in entrepreurship.  Unfortunately one of those subjects is statistics.  

I spent all this time studying yesterday and when i was sitting in that class today the professor may as well have been speaking another language. I had no ability to focus or use cognitive skills. I had trouble finding keys on my ridiculous texas instruments graphing calculator, while the millenials all around me were spitting out answers like a machine gun.  I got to my car at the end and just burst into tears.  I felt like the biggest dummy in the world and also just a roller coaster of emotions.

I am now back home and have a cup of coffee and walk in the freezing cold.  I have read some of the posts about what to expect when quitting and in the my quit plan section.  Intellectually I know this all normal and part of the cold turkey quit process, but it still feels horrible.

One day at a time, one foot in front of the other, NOPE, NOPE and NOPE no matter how horrible I feel. 

Thanks for listening to my vent.

Verghese