Lots of head games happening ..
Morning was marked by wake up with chest congestion, foggy head. Shower, and nose rinse.-
driving in feeling the raised anxiety level thinking about the quit.
rode bike 3 miles yesterday after work to burn some of the crazy ass crap off.
Hopefully these head games i've been on start lessening in intensity. I know intellectually it is part of the body / brain correcting itself, but i am needing relief from the mental fog and self imposed terror resulting from it.
I find myself praying, breathing and meditation right now as this stuff seems to want to be in my brain now.
Entry 10:37 AM
Back to the meditation audios
11:37AM - still morning anxiety, made a phone call to a long time friend in AA . Discussed how it feel.
12:30 lunch with wife/MIL/SIL
Thoughts jumbles and wild all day. mind races. been walking and breathing, but need to do more.
Will close today entry and return before bed.