My First Day Out - Day 32

Blog Post created by Tyl3rdurd3n on May 7, 2020

I am glad to be writing two days straight now, connecting back here again. I am happy to be conscious of my quit again, and my need to protect it. I am glad to not be alone in my quit. It's a journey, not an event and so I don't want to travel alone.

Today, I had a new and pleasant experience. Today I was on the road and in the markets for a long time, around 4-5 hours, for the first time since I have quit. The lockdown is relaxed now, and I was out for some work. This was a new experience for me, and I did well. I won't say I didn't miss smoking or didn't crave it, but I was able to manage well overall.

I was waiting with my friend for a shop to open. This wait is generally a big trigger, I mean what do you do when you wait? You Smoke! Of course, I didn't this time, and after a few anxious moments, I was okay with that. In fact, after a while, I even forgot about it. It made me realize that the crave is as strong as we want it to be. Once we stop giving it the importance, it cant survive!

Being out in the sun for so long is tiring, especially when we are not used to it for so long. So I was exhausted by the evening. And that's another strong trigger, a long day of work! Again, I got through it. I went past one cigarette store after the other, while roaming in the market, but while I was conscious of it, while I was reminded of my past memories, I didn't stop.

I didn't want to stop. I have given so much time and effort to this quit, given my 32 days, that gave me the strength needed. The craving for the cigarette was too small in comparison to this effort. And I didn't want to give up on these 32 days, just for a puff of smoke.

So, all in all, I am happy with my experience today. Gives me a lot more confidence about myself now. I had many options today, but I said no each time. And that's what I would need to do going forward, just say no! For my health, my happiness and for the effort, I have put in