I just got off the phone with my mom. It was an emotional conversation. We both cried. We just don't seem to able to get on the same page. Somehow, we wind up hurting each others feelings. She feels I don't appreciate what she does/has done for me and I feel she doesn't understand my feelings. I know I'm dealing with childhood wounds and I'm doing my best to respond to situations versus react. My mom's point-of-view is basically get over it, you're an adult. My point-of-view is a wounded inner child can override an adult's common sense. I want to allow my wounded child the opportunity to be heard if she needs to speak. My mom's family was very adept at using invalidation as a means of control. Too often, I feel invalidated and I have to really work at not trying to invalidate her.
I feel emotionally drained and now I have to go to work which is a smoking environment.
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