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72 hours, 3 D. O. F. – Independence Day for Me and America

TurboRose
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Day 1 (Saturday Noon – Sunday Noon)

The triggers were minimal.  I spent most of the time binge watching.

Day 2 (Sunday Noon – Monday Noon)

I added more activity and trigger situations.  Dinner at my brother’s includes before, during and after dinner drinks.  I never smoked around my family so I have no immediate connection between drinking and smoking.  I would smoke once I was back at home.  I got home, the trigger was small and I was able to ride it out.

I went to the clinic to talk with the nurse practitioner who prescribed the Bupropion for smoking cessation.  I told her in the future she needs to suggest a quit program when she writes the prescription.  I had to find out about it myself. I only found out about a program because I was trying to find out how the medication was suppose to help me quit smoking.  I wound up educating her about the EXCommunity and other websites.  She was appreciative.

I do bookkeeping for a local farmer who smokes.  She doesn’t smoke indoors but she stepped outside when I was leaving and lit up.  I didn’t ask her not to smoke.  I rode it out.  I left there and went to get an estimate on some damage my car sustained.  The estimate was way higher than I expected.  Money issues are triggers.  I was able to ride it out.  I ate a whole lot of atomic balls.  My mouth was on fire and my tongue raw but I rode it out.

Day 3 (Monday Noon – Tuesday Noon)

The evening was tough. The village did fireworks and my dog is afraid of the noise.  He gets frantic and inconsolable.  His frustration frustrates me.  I ate more atomic balls.

 

Since my quit date, I’ve been feeling sleepy.  I don’t feel tired but I want to take a nap.  Tonight will be another tough night for my little sweetheart with the fireworks.  I’m having dinner at my brother’s again – paella, yummy!  I’m out of atomic balls. I hope the dollar store or drug store is open.

3 DOF

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My relationship with Nic O. Tine began when I was a kid. Occasionally, my dad would have me light his cigarette (Philip Morris.) By age10, I was sneaking butts and once I took a whole cigarette. It was also when my dad’s mom was diagnosed with esophageal cancer. Dad didn’t feel he had the right to caution my brothers and I against smoking. It was my mom who told us not to smoke. She became very critical of smokers and smoking. Shortly, after my grandmother’s death, I witnessed a moment that stuck with me: My mom and dad were standing in the bathroom. Dad was throwing his cigarettes in the toilet vowing to quit. My dad smoked until he died. In high school, a couple of my friends smoked and I would bum smokes from them. I didn’t want to consider myself a “smoker” because of my mom’s harsh opinions. I figured as long as I didn’t purchase a pack, I wasn’t a smoker. I didn’t purchase my first pack of smokes until I was a junior in college. Smoking wound up being a weapon I used to feel bad about myself. I knew it was bad for my health. I felt a tremendous amount of guilt, ashamed and like a bad little girl for disobeying my mom. It was overwhelming. Over the years, I found myself reenacting the scene I witnessed as a young girl. On a Sunday evening (always Sunday,) I’d stand in front of the toilet throwing away my smokes vowing to quit. Though I acknowledged my smoking, I never smoked in front of my parents nor any of my mom’s family. I smoked around other smokers or around people I didn’t know and didn’t care whether or not they judged me. Professionally, I’m an IT person. I did applications development, systems design, technical support and customer service. I’ve worked in the fast food, manufacturing, software and travel industries. I have also worked as a substitute teacher, hotel front desk clerk and travel agent. Currently, I work part-time as a bookkeeper for a local farmer (commodities and equestrian.) Personally, I am single, no children. I’m the youngest of 3. During my early childhood, I lived in a combined family situation. At one point, I was the youngest of 13. I am a sexual abuse survivor. I’m a 3rd generation Intuitive/Medium and I'm an empath. I enjoy photography, traveling and being creative. I have 2 cottage industry projects I’m building; Home Decor/Apparel and Intuitive/Medium (not Psychic) readings. I have the sweetest rescued Yorkshire Terrier, Tabasco.