Some of us are fighting not just our Addictive Demon but our Personal Demons as well. How do we vanquish our fears and fight our Personal and Addictive Demons Successfully? Should we fight them at all?
It certainly takes Spiritual Fortitude to face your Fears and battle your Demons but is warring the best way to Victory?
Addiction without exception is one of the most dominant and formidable of Demons. But other such thought forms that can appear overwhelming and bigger than ourselves include fear, doubt, worry, shame, guilt and rage. The cumulative effect is unmistakable!
I've learned I can almost gauge my ability to mature and grow as a Spiritual Being on any level, by how often I am facing Personal Demons.
One of the most overlooked ways to work through our fears is through those who challenge us. Those who push our buttons the most may also prove to be our best Spiritual Instructors! When we face these other seemingly unrelated Demons we fortify ourselves for the NicoDemon and visa versa- it's simultaneous!
An alternative way of fighting our Demons without fighting is by accepting what is and releasing resistance to the present moment. Accepting my reality, when that reality was painful and undesirable seemed the last thing I'd ever do, for a very long time. But acceptance isn't relinquishing Self-Control to the Demon! It actually entails embracing the present moment with Self-Responsibility.
Seeking to avoid feeling weak and vulnerable, I fought against this idea of surrender and acceptance of what is. I fought it for a long, long, tedious time. In other words, I fought against not fighting my Personal and Addictive Demons. The need to resist them was stronger than my ability to see another way; the fear of not resisting them was stronger than the Faith of having support to walk through them.
I kept fighting until I had nothing left with which to battle anything any more! I collapsed in upon myself, because I had no energy to do anything else! I'm a very stubborn person! My Willpower went numb! This time, I did something different - Willingness. Instead of raising back up to do battle, I simply recognized that I owned this situation. My Addiction 100% belongs to me! I had to be willing to accept and vanquish the Demons one minute at a time!
I finally understood that the only way to stop Addictive Behavior from recurring was to fully get it. Know my part in it. Be with the effects of it until I realized what it was in me that drew me back into it and putting a stop to giving that force permission to lead me there.
I realized that fighting Demons outside myself would never work. The reality was that my Personal and Addictive Demons originated with me and could only really be vanquished on the inner ground of my Awareness and Acceptance!
