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Thelastquit2019
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Hi everyone I’ve debated on this post but hopefully will help someone struggling. So here goes. My life before I quit consisted of sitting on my back porch hiding from life as I smoked cigarette after cigarette. Dreaming of all the things I wanted to do but knowing deep down I would never do those wonderful things because it would take me away from my precious cigarette. Then I would go into a depression and smoke even more it was a circle I was in and couldn’t break it because I felt weak. Some how I found this site I don’t even remember. I started reading and learning this addiction and a light bulb went off I wasn’t weak my addiction was the weakness, so I thought if I get rid of that I will be okay. So simple, I was making things harder than it needed to be. Of course I had to go through the initial rewiring my thoughts. no I do not want to smoke I hate it. I would repeat that to myself in the beginning and it helped because it was the truth shining through. I’m now have the job I always wanted and was always afraid I wasn’t good enough, I’m a nurse coordinator at a hospice house and I couldn’t be happier to provide such precious care for people needing end of life care on their journey. Other things have improved, my relationships with family. I believe because I’m now present 100 percent instead of always sneaking of to smoke. My confidence has sky rocketed, and that is a wonderful feeling. I’m going to continue to improve who I am and I feel excited to learn everyday. My pledge to myself is to be the best I can for me . Then I can be my best for others. If your just starting this journey trust yourself that you can do this. Because you can. Thank you to the elders they are so awesome with their guidance and words of encouragement they are part of the foundation to my quit. Thank you to everyone. Over 500 days strong and counting.

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I started smoking when I was 16,I’m now 47 .The last 5 years I truly hated smoking and had several failed attempts.This time I’m keeping my quit tools very close and not letting my guard down .