I made myself a healthy lunch and was reprimanded yet again for "stuffing my face" etc etc by habitually abusive father, argument blew up, really need to get out of here! Feel sick. Verge of tears. Grief anger hurt in tummy. Cig wouldn't help anyway.
Frozen. Silent screams. Deep breaths. Made some Facebook movie poster thing that makes your face appear on the poster. It made my face that little bit more beautiful (photoshopped) I liked looking at it. Smoking is self abuse and I used it as such. Going to ride my bike to the gym. So angry rn, dwelling on wrongs and hating on him, myself. Boo hoo!