Tomorrow it will be 6 weeks since I lost my husband and started smoking again. I am still kicking myself for it, but I just cannot convince myself it is doing more harm and no good. I have reset my quit to Nov 19th, the Monday after the 2nd Celebration of life/memorial we have planned for my husband. The first one is this weekend and for those who have RSVPed we are looking at over 100 people. It will be in Kansas City and I have friends coming from Missouri, Oklahoma, Texas, North Carolina. Then on the 2nd one at my home in North Central Kansas I have people coming from all over Kansas, California, Arizona, Texas, North Carolina and Colorado. I am looking forward to seeing friends and family that I haven't seen in years and I know it is going to be a very emotional three weeks.
I am also spending the next three weeks getting ready to quit again, reading Allen Cars book, reading other blog posts, reading through my blog posts from last year, I see my doctor in 2 weeks and will discuss going back on Chantix- it worked last year.
One day at a time, but I will be a non smoker by November 19th.