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11 days till I am an EX

Tabbiekat
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Wide awake, so I write....

So a few days ago I had my moments of doubt and second guessing and then I had a good stern talk with myself. I have completed 4 days of the Chantix starter pack. Good thing is I typically go out and smoke around this time of night when I am not sleeping and I have no desire. The thought crossed my mind since it was a habit, but obviously less desire makes it easier to avoid bad habits. That plus if I go outside the cats will come in then I have to fight to get one or two of them to go back out before I try going back to sleep..lol. Yes I am that crazy cat lady- though I do have a dog and husband, so Cat lady in training? No major issues yet with Chantix and I am really hoping that tonight/this morning is not an indication of my uncontrolled insomnia coming back. I know it is a side effect and honestly out of all the potential Chantix side effects, the insomnia scares me. It was one thing when I was in my teen's and living on 1-2 hrs sleep, but I cannot go through that again now that I am 20+yrs older. I did talk to my doctor and due to sleep issues a few months ago I still have a few pills left of an RX so I know I will try that tomorrow and if needed he will either refill it or have me try something else. Ugh hate taking pills, hate smoking....once I stop smoking I can stop Chantix and hopefully stop sleep aid.

Earlier I had a thought earlier about how a lot of my conversations with my husband are usually held outside on the porch while smoking. He is disabled and I stay home and care for him. At least 3-5 times a day we are out front. I talked to him about it and we agreed once we do quit we will still go outside on the front porch, sit in a different area and talk at least once a day. It's the little adjustments that have to happen, but just because we are quitting does not mean we have to quit our outside talks.

Off the computer and back to bed I go, got my book and hopefully get some sleep.

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I quit smoking Oct 31st 2017. It was hard, I had rough moments, but even with my husband and roommate smoking I kept from smoking since I decided to do it for me. Aug 7th 2018 my husband quit smoking. September 18 my world was turned upside down as my husband died in front of me. February 19, 2019 I quit..it took a few tries after my husband passed, but I am no longer a smoker.