I'm feeling pretty good. Surprisingly good, actually. My wife's uncle passed this morning and she was there with him. She is not out to that part of her family so my support has been for her at home (making sure she eats and tries to sleep). The stability that I need to have with myself for my quit spilled over into my support for her. I feel so relieved that this is the case because I was really worried that I wouldn't be able to handle her emotions and hurt without smoking. But, I am proud to say that I did. And, I honestly think that I handled them better than if I had resorted to stuffing down my emotions with wine and cigarettes. Yay, what a huge relief. It can be done. I can do it.
On my run this morning one of my favorite songs by Florence and the Machine, "Shake it off" came on and I think that's going to be my Quit Anthem. I'm just taking this one day at a time. Doing my best to remain in a place of gratitude which brings that real dopamine hit and enjoying the ride.
Thank you to everyone for your words of support and encouragement. I am so happy to have found this space.