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GOODBYE FOREVER

SuzyQ411
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Dear Cigarettes,

I openly welcomed you into my life at 15. My boyfriend smoked and shared you with me. My girlfriend would sneak you from her Dad for me. I stole you from my parents’ packs and sneaked into the cellar with you.

My first paycheck at 17 bought me a whole carton of you. It was no time until I was smoking up to two packs a day of you. But were you appreciative? No!!

I cared for you deeply, but I came to realize you did not care for me.

Right from the start, you were deceitful. You convinced me I could get through anything life handed out as long as I had you by my side. You misused me: You gave me migraine headaches, played havoc with my heart and lungs, and messed up my circulation.

When I decided to leave, you taunted me. Told me I could not get along without you. I came to believe you and went back to you. But I was wrong.

I’m here to tell you that I do not want you in my life anymore. I am through listening to your lies. I am done with you. Taunt me, if you must, but my ears are now deaf to you. I am leaving for good this time.

Goodbye Forever.

 

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Prior to my first quitting on 8/25/2019, I was a heavy smoker for over 60 years. That time, I quit due to health concerns regarding clogged arteries to my brain. Tar deposits from cigarettes were making the situation worse. I had become a prime candidate for a stroke and required surgery to clean out my left carotid artery. I have relapsed 4X since that quit, the last one being on 05.15.2022. ( At one point in all of this madness, I had been quit for 1.5 years). Then on 9/7/2021 I began my recent eight month quit before my current relapse. I am in the process of planning a return to the non-smoking life. After more than 2 weeks of smoking, wheezing and coughing and being short of breath, I have set my new quit date of June 1, 2022 as the beginning of my forever quit. I am done with this madness!! God is good.