Today has been filled with urges. I have coasted through this week, Week 1. I decided that I am not a smoker so I know I will get through this day and the next. I will beat this battle one urge at a time. This is the first day I have sat in my house alone without the distraction of kids. I wasn't expecting this inner demon be so loud and annoying today. I won't let it get the best of me. Thanking God for my stubborn attitude toward this journey! And, I am very grateful for this place. BecomeAnEX has been a safe haven for me. It has been the perfect place to vent, support and research.