Good morning everyone. I've been having kind of a hard time this week and am hoping talking about it will help. I quit more than five months ago and it's been mostly enjoyable. But the past week or so I have been more bummed out than I was since the beginning of quitting back in March. I haven't exactly craved nicotine but I've thought frequently about vaping. Like, there have been no physical craving feelings but the sense of something missing that might make me feel better has been much more present. I'm having the same feelings for caffeinated coffee as well. Anyone with a similar experience months after quitting?
I am stressed out, which could explain it. This is where I really feel weird about complaining because the pandemic has continued to spare me and my family. I'm still working and doing okay. But it is getting me down as this year grinds on. All of the death but no proper mourning, is part of it. The isolation is a huge part of it. I don't know. One of my friends' parents died this week and I'm sad for them. I'm not going to ingest nicotine about it, but it's as if even thinking about nicotine is a barometer for my mental health and happiness. I'm not fulfilled so I need to put something in my brain?
Long story short, I've been struggling emotionally and that makes me want to find something to help me feel better. But that thing isn't nicotine anymore. It's change and I hope it takes shape soon.
Thanks for reading. Please everyone take good care of yourselves.
