I haven't posted in a few days but I have been coming here and reading every day. It really helps. Thanks for posting. I've been reading a lot of what jonescarp.aka.dale.Jan_2007 has written over the years, which helps with the timeline so I can manage my expectations better.
This quitting thing is a trip. It hasn't been as hard as I felt it was in past attempts, but definitely not easy always. I'll find myself a little on edge emotionally - sad or irritable in my thoughts - more than I want to. The lockdown due to the virus is challenging because I'm bored and lonely. I'm getting time to confront feelings and work through them in a much different way than distancing and stuffing and I'm grateful for that. Hard work though.
I'm enjoying moments of this. A lot of people here say, "I don't do that anymore," which is a great way to reframe smoking thoughts. I've felt that smoking/vaping just doesn't apply to me now, so every time I think about it and then realize that it doesn't apply, I can relax a little bit because I don't have to do anything. I get to do nothing instead of responding, plus I get a nice reminder that I'm doing what I want to do and healing up. I also had my first experience of not being sure what day I was on