~~The trick is to enjoy life. Don't wish away your days waiting for better ones ahead.~~ Marjorie Pay Hinckley
One of my favorite quotes is something about "Don't live the same day for 75 years and call it a life". Same thing as above, I think. And when we quit smoking, sometimes we tend to white knuckle our days, hoping to reach day 1000000 soon because we are so not happy with day 1. When is it going to get better? Why don't I feel better? Why is it so hard??? Ugh, I hate my day!!! I'm depressed...I'm angry....I'm sad....
Quits can be hard, absolutely!! It's creating a lifestyle, not just not grabbing a cigarette. And there are going to be moments that crush us...there are going to be moments that surprise us....there are going to be moments that give us glimpses of how life truly can be.
Please don't hang on to those crushing moments and make them your day. Don't hang on to your stress or anxiety. Don't hang on to the thought that you are miserable. None of these moments will last any longer than you allow them to. They are just 5 to 10 minutes our of your entire day.
Find the fun. Find the serenity. Find the gratitude. Find the laughter. Find all those sweet, enjoyable moments that make memories in your heart so that when you aren't ok, you can know that you will be again.
It isn't what you're losing that matters. It's all that you gain. It isn't wanting a cigarette that should be your focus, it's remembering that you want to be free of them. It's getting through the craves, not getting stuck in them. It's knowing you can rather than wishing you could. It's giggling with life rather than hating it. It is, in fact, loving yourself enough to gift yourself a life without poisons.
So yes, there will be moments of ickiness. But there are more moments of pure goodness. There are choices to make, you see....holding on to the icky or embracing the goodness. Hating your quit or loving yourself through it. Clinging to your fears or letting them drift away.
I hope you find the humor. I hope you search for peace. I hope you turn to the joy life offers you. It isn't always easy but it is always, always worth it.