I am happy to post again. I have wondered what and how you all are doing. I am slowly gaining more confidence to talk in this public forum again. It is nothing anyone said. I have Schizophrenia. This is a severe mental illness. I get very frighted during unpredictable times through out the months, years...I just live and try to survive the best way I can. Roll with it, right.
Important point is I haven't had to smoke over it. The longer I stay quit, the easier it gets. I don't think of them. It just rarely occurs to me. I usually am having a hard time breathing at that time. A friend here told me he did as well, Brianairb2.
I am so happy I made it through the toughest part with all of you behind me. I seriously thank my Daughter as well. All those talks of encouragement, any time of the day or night. She is an amazing young lady. So proud of her and my Son is just amazing as well. They and my Mom are so proud of me. Most important, I am proud of me. I know most of the time when I thought I just couldn't make it without a cigarette, I would think of how long I have gone. Although I was frightened about what would happen if I didn't smoke, I believed in myself. I've made it this far, I can just breathe through it. Whatever works for you to maintain your quit is great, do that.
Ex is the best place you can be when your preparing to quit all the way through the process there are people to help you along. You will hopefully connect with friendships. Great job to all the friends I have made here. Great job to everyone that is here.
Sincerely,
Cathy
129 DOF
