Today is my month 1 day 4 DOF. I just had a testing moment. I didn't know if I'd cave and have one or just say no. I am so very proud of myself. I just said no. In my thoughts, I was thinking I don't want to be stumbling around and stinking along with all the other bad moods of being mad and sad at myself for smoking. So I stayed put physically and mentally, in a strong stance against the temptation. I am so happy I made it through that confrontation. When I left I knew there would be temptation. I wasn't sure what the outcome would be. I am very very very happy with this outcome. I am a still a non smoker. Whew and yayy.
May God bless me much more strength in the future. If not for the grace and mercy of God , I might not have made the right choice, to not smoke. I don't know what is so alluring, enticing about smoking. Especially while we are in full on quit mode. Rebellion aspect of it maybe, I surely don't know. If I did know I could then squash it like a bug. Maybe the allure of the dark temptress is different for each of us. I pray for clarity in this area of my life along with a better sense of confidence that I can make it through the rest of my life as a non smoker.
Dentist was first thing this morning. I needed a filling replaced. All went well just took until lunch time. They're great at my Dentist Office, I just love them. The Physicians Assistant told me she still has the Christmas card I sent them up. That really warmed my heart that she remembered I sent it after all this time. Just another reason I love them so much.
My BG is still slowly but progressively coming down. I can be a little impatient with it, but as long as it is showing improvement, I'm good with it. I want it to be in normal ranges, of course. I'm working in the right ways to produce that outcome. Patients my lovelies. I should have a normal report with in the next week or two. Provided I stay on track with food. By not eating everything and consistent exercise - treadmill. I haven't been going to the gym in the past 4 weeks. My daughter is so over protective. Ya know it is better, a lot better that her not giving a care. I'll take what I can get how I can get it right now, lol