I am claiming another smoke free day, thank you Good Lord!!! I am having a nice and relaxing day. I've been reading on whyquit.com. It's a very good site. Very informative. Information on the how's and why's of nicotine addition all the way to mental illnesses with smoking cessation how's and why's explained. I spend a lot of time reading on the internet. It is what I enjoy doing. I get tired of it every so often. So I will do other things instead. Just like thinking about smoking. The point is I am keeping my mind busy and I am concerned with doing good in my life.
For the past 3 years I've been steadily building on where I am now, today with Christ in my life. I try to live in present moment thinking. Maybe that is why I stay in a good mood. I've walked a long hard road that I'm not finished walking to get to where I am. I am going to do good in this world. I want to be a better me. Always striving for my own betterment. Is that a bad thing? Is being content and happy most of the time a bad thing? I don't like strife, conflict or chaos. It wears me out physically. So I avoid certain situations. I avoid things that are not good for me, drinking alcohol, cursing and now smoking, you get the picture.
Anyways, I have a question. ? What will you think about me when I tell you that I have had a mental illness for exactly 20 years this August 2017? What, will you be able to believe what I say? Will you be able to take me seriously when I'm serious and jokingly when I am joking?
I've lived with Schizophrenia for half my life. That is why I protect myself from situations that I know I'm not comfortable being in. I don't want special treatment because of my illness. I just want to be treated like there is nothing "wrong" with me. I do hope that is not to much to ask.
I hope I can still be a part of this great thing here at EX. I don't want to be held back because I am just a little bit different.