Day 1

[SamanthaAshley]

I would love to say that this morning has been better than expected but I’m going to be completely honest. I have had a pretty bad morning. Seems when a craving hits it does more that just make me want something.. I know anger and anxiety all comes with this but I normally struggle with that and it has only been the first morning and I’m having a hard time controlling my “emotions”. I just want to have people who I can come to with no judgment and be able to say that I’m already not doing ok. I went and got a pack this morning. Haven’t opened it. Feel like I’ve already failed myself by buying another one. I do recognize that My post is nothing but excuses but honestly wondering if maybe my doctor was right about see if this medication will work for me then with her help, take the steps to quit smoking. I just don’t want to have a mental break down which seemed to be the case. I’m not giving up. I’m just lost.