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Do You Really Want To?

RoseH
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When I finally understood what “addiction to Nicotine” was, it was way too late...  Many things in life do not work out the first time!  Ask me.  I know!  Unfortunately, I had to learn the hard way about my addiction...

When an artist creates a canvas painting masterpiece, he or she can stop and begin again, with no consequences...  That is not the case when you quit smoking!  Don’t be foolish, like I was.  Or better to say, Don’t be naive’ like I was!

I had a beautiful six (6) month quit when I was 45 years old, after a major operation.  And I thought I could have “just one.”  I was naive' because I thought I could control my “sleeping” addiction to the drug Nicotine.  And that, my friends, did not work!  I lit up one cigarette, and it felt like the lighted match was going down my throat, after abstaining from smoking, and I literally cried out, “I don’t want to do this!”  And within a few hours I was totally hooked again on smoking, one after another for the next 20 years!

You may not really believe me about this...  my history of smoking, before I finally quit very close to two years now, but I pledge that it is the whole truth, and nothing BUT the truth!  I am giving back now to everyone who wants to quit, and stay quit...  I have COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease) because I didn’t stop early enough...

I’ve said it so many times before, to myself...  If I only knew then, what I know now!  The only way to become a winner and to quit smoking is to never light up again!  And in the beginning, that thought must be “just one day at a time”.

Come here often.  Stay here when you feel weak.  Because to start over [quit smoking] is very hard and so depressing that many lose the battle and destroy their health and end up miserable and terminally ill!

Never give up!  One day at a time!  It is so simple! Just do not buy, beg, or borrow a cigarette and light it up...and you will be a winner!  I wish all of you a very happy and smoke free Saturday, and let’s all keep our beautiful and precious quits, ok?

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I was 57 years old and smoking like a chimney in September 2003. I was also having medical problems and upon my doctor’s diagnosis, I knew I had to quit smoking. I was scheduled and admitted to the hospital in October 2003. I had a total hysterectomy and was recuperating, when a nurse found me upset in my room and she told me to try to calm down, and take a deep breath… I could not take a deep breath! In fact, I had to be put on oxygen immediately! I was terrified. A medical specialist was brought in, and that is when I learned I had COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease). My x-rays confirmed it, and the direct cause was smoking [since I was 15 years old]. I had double pneumonia as an infant, so my lungs were fragile, even when I was very young… I had to stay an extra week and they pumped steroids and antibiotics in my arm so I could breathe on my own, again. My nose got so sore with those oxygen cannulas in both nostrils. Hindsight is always 20/20. I should have never started smoking. However, peer pressure was awful when I was 15 years old. A few of my classmates dared me to light up and smoke one… I remember that first taste and how I coughed from the smoke. It was awful! But I wanted to “belong”, so I smoked until the addiction took hold of me! Back to the hospital room… I was terrified. I quit. I stayed that way for six whole months. My husband, Ed quit with me. We were doing great and then one day I said to him, “My life feels empty. Do you think we’ve got this quitting thing under control? Do you think we can have just a few a day? Before I could say another word, he was off in the car to buy some cigarettes… We both lit up when he returned, and I felt like my throat and lungs were on fire! I smashed it out and coughed! “I will never do that again!” But an addict’s lies are just that! Before long I was smoking over a pack a day again… The truth is that I had no idea how terrible the “addiction” to the drug Nicotine was. I smoked for another decade or two and each day I would tell myself that I would quit “tomorrow”. Don’t be as naïve’ as I was about this slowly killing addiction! Quit now! I would not be using two inhalers if I would have kept my quit way back then…