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Freedom

RoseH
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I like to talk about the freedom I feel since I quit smoking…  because I am hopeful that it will help our new members have hope and faith…  that quitting smoking is NOT impossible…  No matter how long you smoked!

 

I was 14 years old when I took a cigarette in the “dime store” [anyone remember those?]  One of my so-called “friends” dared me to take a butt and light it up…  I coughed and gagged, and I thought I was going to throw up!  But back then, it was a status symbol…  The “Marlboro Man” was on TV commercials…  We were not taught about how dangerous smoking was…  It was “in” and you did it, until you were “hooked”.

 

We all need to accept and believe that smoking is an addiction to the drug Nicotine!  And this addiction will make us suffer, get sick and die, if we do not quit, before it’s too late!  The “Nico-Demon” gave me COPD  (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease) which is incurable.  However, since I quit, my body knows what to do, to heal itself, as much as it can!  I no longer have to use an “emergency inhaler” and I don’t “huff and puff” gasping for “air” anymore…

 

My life revolved around the clock and WHEN can I have my next cigarette?  And this fact put me in a prison, literally!  I was a different person when I smoked, and now I am FREE!

 

I smoked for over 50 years, and I am quit soon (August 12, 2020) for TWO years!  I never knew what I had lost, until I quit!  And, I will NEVER pick up another cigarette, because “going back to smoking”, in my humble opinion, is a depressing, deadly place!  And I only knew that truth, when I set myself free!

 

Quitting smoking does NOT take anything away from me, that is good!  Quitting smoking is not a LOSS…It is the beginning of true freedom, that I forgot when I smoked!

If you need help to this freedom, just contact me!  I will be your quit buddy or help you in any and every way possible!  Rosemary

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I was 57 years old and smoking like a chimney in September 2003. I was also having medical problems and upon my doctor’s diagnosis, I knew I had to quit smoking. I was scheduled and admitted to the hospital in October 2003. I had a total hysterectomy and was recuperating, when a nurse found me upset in my room and she told me to try to calm down, and take a deep breath… I could not take a deep breath! In fact, I had to be put on oxygen immediately! I was terrified. A medical specialist was brought in, and that is when I learned I had COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease). My x-rays confirmed it, and the direct cause was smoking [since I was 15 years old]. I had double pneumonia as an infant, so my lungs were fragile, even when I was very young… I had to stay an extra week and they pumped steroids and antibiotics in my arm so I could breathe on my own, again. My nose got so sore with those oxygen cannulas in both nostrils. Hindsight is always 20/20. I should have never started smoking. However, peer pressure was awful when I was 15 years old. A few of my classmates dared me to light up and smoke one… I remember that first taste and how I coughed from the smoke. It was awful! But I wanted to “belong”, so I smoked until the addiction took hold of me! Back to the hospital room… I was terrified. I quit. I stayed that way for six whole months. My husband, Ed quit with me. We were doing great and then one day I said to him, “My life feels empty. Do you think we’ve got this quitting thing under control? Do you think we can have just a few a day? Before I could say another word, he was off in the car to buy some cigarettes… We both lit up when he returned, and I felt like my throat and lungs were on fire! I smashed it out and coughed! “I will never do that again!” But an addict’s lies are just that! Before long I was smoking over a pack a day again… The truth is that I had no idea how terrible the “addiction” to the drug Nicotine was. I smoked for another decade or two and each day I would tell myself that I would quit “tomorrow”. Don’t be as naïve’ as I was about this slowly killing addiction! Quit now! I would not be using two inhalers if I would have kept my quit way back then…