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UPSET BUT STRONG

RoseH
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‎04-24-2020 07:00 AM

Good Morning, Everyone

For my NOPE365 friends, I cannot contact all of you because I am BLOCKED from the website!  I didn’t mean to post something to anger anyone and I feel bad!  Won’t go into the details because it upsets me...  I learned just about a year ago that I may be considered a “Highly Sensitive Person” and I spoke with several Quitnet members about it before the old Q closed its doors.  I am also chronically depressed since early childhood (a family genetic thing), and I was not diagnosed until I was about 42 years old, so I think all of you can imagine that my life was not a happy one...

When I quit smoking, my new self began to thrive!  I am certain I received Divine help in quitting.  I also know that reading the book by Allen Carr entitled, “How to Stop Smoking the Easy Way," was extremely helpful for me to have the courage and right attitude to quit!

I am so happy and grateful that I come here for support!  My husband is a wonderful man, and a retired Navy Commander (in Intelligence), but we married later in life and he is a once-confirmed bachelor...  LOL  Having outside support is nice to have!

I didn’t think I could survive without cigarettes...  How sad is that?  I am literally thriving!  What a wonderful new way to live!  And I can thank Quitnet, Nope365 and this wonderful website for that!  Addiction is not something we can “get over”...  However, with the right attitude, inner strength and total commitment we can literally re-invent ourselves into the person we truly want to be!

I wish all of you a very happy and smoke free Friday, and let’s all keep our beautiful quits, OK?  Rosemary

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I was 57 years old and smoking like a chimney in September 2003. I was also having medical problems and upon my doctor’s diagnosis, I knew I had to quit smoking. I was scheduled and admitted to the hospital in October 2003. I had a total hysterectomy and was recuperating, when a nurse found me upset in my room and she told me to try to calm down, and take a deep breath… I could not take a deep breath! In fact, I had to be put on oxygen immediately! I was terrified. A medical specialist was brought in, and that is when I learned I had COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease). My x-rays confirmed it, and the direct cause was smoking [since I was 15 years old]. I had double pneumonia as an infant, so my lungs were fragile, even when I was very young… I had to stay an extra week and they pumped steroids and antibiotics in my arm so I could breathe on my own, again. My nose got so sore with those oxygen cannulas in both nostrils. Hindsight is always 20/20. I should have never started smoking. However, peer pressure was awful when I was 15 years old. A few of my classmates dared me to light up and smoke one… I remember that first taste and how I coughed from the smoke. It was awful! But I wanted to “belong”, so I smoked until the addiction took hold of me! Back to the hospital room… I was terrified. I quit. I stayed that way for six whole months. My husband, Ed quit with me. We were doing great and then one day I said to him, “My life feels empty. Do you think we’ve got this quitting thing under control? Do you think we can have just a few a day? Before I could say another word, he was off in the car to buy some cigarettes… We both lit up when he returned, and I felt like my throat and lungs were on fire! I smashed it out and coughed! “I will never do that again!” But an addict’s lies are just that! Before long I was smoking over a pack a day again… The truth is that I had no idea how terrible the “addiction” to the drug Nicotine was. I smoked for another decade or two and each day I would tell myself that I would quit “tomorrow”. Don’t be as naïve’ as I was about this slowly killing addiction! Quit now! I would not be using two inhalers if I would have kept my quit way back then…