Hi Redhead and Welcome back, I remember you...I am so sorry about both your loses hon...now it is time to take care of YOU...quitting will be a start in the right direction...read items that Mark above me suggested...and be sure to come to the support site often...after you quit smoking, and before you pick up again, come here and ask for help, and give us a chance to talk you out of smoking...You can do this...get working and plan that quit day...~ Colleen