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I'm back on the train to freedom....

Pops
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Good evening friends.....

I know it's been awhile, and I'm apologizing for that.  My head just wasn't right, and I was not ready to resume my quit.  I'm happy to say that I am now done, and am now back to day "one"...I've been here before, and I know what I'm in for.  I can only hope that it won't be as bad as it certainly can be.  I have quite a bit of experience in not smoking, and at one time I was committed to the concept of "NOPE".  That is the only way that this quit will survive.  I will do my best, and just keep plugging away, one moment at a time....I certainly am looking forward to the days that I rarely think about smoking at all.  My experience has taught me to focus on the positive, and stay away from the victime role of being chained to nicotine.  I will do my best to break free of that bondage agaion, and with alot of diligent work and prayer...perhaps those chains will loosen up sooner, rather than later.  

I would like to thank all of you for all of your well wishes that you sent me while I was out there.  I read each of them, and they are a huge part of why I am back here at all.  God bless each and everyone of you.....

Pops, on Day One!mac and cheese in a tree.jpg

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Hi, and thanks for stopping by to read my page....My name is Ken Bishop...aka, Pops. I am a stubborn older addict of nicotine....I have quit on numerous occasions in the past, and have experienced great rewards as a direct result of not ingesting deadly toxins into my bloodstream. One of the curses of having a strong constitution that seems to be able to withstand much more than others can...is this...my body would still be able to move around, and get things accomplished even after I was poisoned by the harmful effects of nicotine addiction. Eventually, the harm became so significant, that not even I, with all of my denial...could avoid the truth that to continue to smoke, would most assuredly be the death of me, and in short order as well. On Sept 1st, of 2018...I found myself in a rehab facility for alcohol abuse, and came very near death. I quit messing around, and had a deep and moving spiritual encounter, and have remained sober without one single urge to pick up a drink since. That was after consuming copious amounts of booze for many years in the past. After a short while.. I asked for spiritual help from my creator to make it possible for me to get the same amount of conviction towards finally being able to successfully put down nicotine once and for all...As of....(September 14th, 2019)...I have 17 days of living smokefree! Woo Hoo!!! Friends and family are all very proud and happy for me. They have asked me what I thought was the turning point, after having experienced so many failed attempts before. I simply reply, "I took the God Shot". xoxoxo Pops update: in Dec of 19 when the stock market started going nuts...I used that as an excuse to start smoking again. I see-sawed back and forth for severa months, and when the COVID crisis hit, I simply lost all desire to be smokefree...I was going to smoke & that was final. Well, as always...the pains of excessive injestion of nicotine into my blood stream...(one puff is all it takes) started affecting my everyday life again...I knew I had to quit placating my inner child and grow up and accept a life without nicotine. The normal person would read this and say well duh...finally he's getting it. But the normally addicted nicotine addict would understand...weird huh? So now I'm back with a new quit date of July 8th, 2020 & am hoping that I can accept that as a perfect quit date that does not need to be changed. Thanks for reading and good luck to you in your quit journey. Pops w 4 DOF!