Good morning Family!!!
Oh how much I do miss this site....okay, I know alot of you are wondering how I'm doing...and for that I am sincerely grateful. In short...I am demonstrably better this morning than I have been for the last few weeks....I still have a few nuerons, that are coming and going every so often. However, the intervals are much longer in between, and the duration of them is not more than a couple of seconds....thank you God for that...trust me family when I tell you this...if you have never experienced anything like that great. Personally, my mind gets terrified when that happens, or at least it did...now it is simply frustrating. That by no means equates to me lessening the severity of the event...on that note, I am perfectly aware of just how close those extended blackout periods brought me to deaths' front door.
So hey, on a kewl note...I am committing to a renewed quit date of NLT Sept 30, 2018....I guess the mantra that Youngatheart.7.4.12 keeps reminding us of...must ring true with me..One thing is for sure, having a drink in my hand without a smoke??? Well as the New Yorkers are famous for saying, "eating apple pie, without cheese...is like getting a kiss without a squeeze." And for those who know me, I Love me some squeezes...lol So, it is with great anticipation that my next quit journey "will" be final quit. (I certainly am aware that it can be my final quit.) As many of us have done, this is another quit...and I'm not beating myself up over it. Instead, I am simply grateful that there is and will be a safe place to go to be amongst "my people." So, as for the title of this blog, and the previous statement....you guys know how much I love proverbs. Well, I heard one Saturday morning for the first time in my life, and it certainly could be applicable as a tool for me to stow away in my tool kit...
"It's not happy people that are Grateful...."
"It's Grateful people that are happy....."
hmmm sounds like some tool for me for sure. I invariably would think to myself when the urge of smoking would return trying to take me back, "If this quit I am on succeeds...I will be so happy." Most people could certainly understand that sentiment. According to this newly discovered proverb, instead of thinking like that...perhaps I should simply be grateful that I am currently quit, and focus on that only. I would then most certainly be grateful...which would automatically make me happy! ??? make sense? it sure does to me now. Notwithstanding all of the other added benefits to not smoking, of which most all of us are so aware of.
p.s. I also am very much "grateful" for each and every well wishers that have encouraged me along the way.
Well, I guess it is time for me to get back to making the donuts. Have a blessed day, each and everyone of you.
oh, one more great quote that I suddenly remembered from the 80s when I was in Poughkeepsie, NY.
"The things that I fear doing...those are the exact things that I must do most"
Eleanor Rosevelt founder and Chancellor of Vassar Colleg