Aint it kewl!

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I tried to hang this kewl pic of a one week pin as a banner, but it didn't like the format...so I embedded it here. Anyway, I had a small moment today as I was going out to the car during lunch, but it just passed as quickly as it came on me...My nature is to want to celebrate @ the drop of a hat, for whatever reason. And today, marked a one week milestone, so why not go out and reward myself with some more death....I mean makes perfect sense to a drug addict....right? Geez! the lies that we tell ourselves to get our own selfish ways....Just sick, is all it is...Fortunately for me, I have been through this on multiple ocassions in the past, and I know this is just a short lived phase, and not to over react to it. Just let it pass without giving it anymore power that it already has....Focus on the positive....not the negative....my actions are direct extensions of my thoughts....If I hope to bring about lasting change in my behavior, then I need to get down to root cause and effect of my thoughts, and develop positive affirmations to help me heal that "stinkin thinkin..."

So with all that deep analytical substance out of the way...maybe I can go and lay my comfortable head down on my clean pillow case, and get a good nights sleep! One week and counting....Woo Hoo!!!

Pops!

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Hi, and thanks for stopping by to read my page....My name is Ken Bishop...aka, Pops. I am a stubborn older addict of nicotine....I have quit on numerous occasions in the past, and have experienced great rewards as a direct result of not ingesting deadly toxins into my bloodstream. One of the curses of having a strong constitution that seems to be able to withstand much more than others can...is this...my body would still be able to move around, and get things accomplished even after I was poisoned by the harmful effects of nicotine addiction. Eventually, the harm became so significant, that not even I, with all of my denial...could avoid the truth that to continue to smoke, would most assuredly be the death of me, and in short order as well. On Sept 1st, of 2018...I found myself in a rehab facility for alcohol abuse, and came very near death. I quit messing around, and had a deep and moving spiritual encounter, and have remained sober without one single urge to pick up a drink since. That was after consuming copious amounts of booze for many years in the past. After a short while.. I asked for spiritual help from my creator to make it possible for me to get the same amount of conviction towards finally being able to successfully put down nicotine once and for all...As of....(September 14th, 2019)...I have 17 days of living smokefree! Woo Hoo!!! Friends and family are all very proud and happy for me. They have asked me what I thought was the turning point, after having experienced so many failed attempts before. I simply reply, "I took the God Shot". xoxoxo Pops update: in Dec of 19 when the stock market started going nuts...I used that as an excuse to start smoking again. I see-sawed back and forth for severa months, and when the COVID crisis hit, I simply lost all desire to be smokefree...I was going to smoke & that was final. Well, as always...the pains of excessive injestion of nicotine into my blood stream...(one puff is all it takes) started affecting my everyday life again...I knew I had to quit placating my inner child and grow up and accept a life without nicotine. The normal person would read this and say well duh...finally he's getting it. But the normally addicted nicotine addict would understand...weird huh? So now I'm back with a new quit date of July 8th, 2020 & am hoping that I can accept that as a perfect quit date that does not need to be changed. Thanks for reading and good luck to you in your quit journey. Pops w 4 DOF!

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