4 Days & Nights Of Relapse

Blog Post created by Peacecat on Aug 22, 2020

I quit on January 8th 2020.  I picked up on August 17th 2020.  I have had a headache every night.  I am smoking as if I had never stopped and I want to stop.  I don’t want to wait too long.  My new quit date is this Tuesday, a day I normally talk to my therapist, a 12 Step recovery partner and my 89 year old uncle.  I have a list of names of people to text or call for support.  I have a list of things to do instead of smoke and to fight a crave inspired by a list I read on this site.  I am in the process of going through BecomeAnEx to get some insight into my triggers and what to do when they come up.  I’m looking for feedback and support.  I am 58 years old and have been on average a pack a day smoker for 30 years.  I’ve quit for over three years and for over seven months (twice).  Time before this time I was vaping with 0 nicotine and it did help and eventually I stopped with that too.  I still have the vape mods and some 0 nicotine e-juice and will use that for the first week or so.  All I know is that I can’t give up.  I do not want to be a cigarette smoker.