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Sorry

OldBones-Larry
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I am so sorry for being gone so long.

I am living in a very dark place right now.

I have been struggling with some very dark thoughts that are not healthy.

My roommates have done as I asked and locked away anything with which I might hurt myself.

I have, may it never be so, even contemplated death sticks once more.

A slower method than some of the other things that have crossed my mind, but, just as deadly to me.

I will be fighting to come back and regain sanity once again and leave this dark place behind.

Be well.

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I am a male that underwent coronary artery bypass X3 (triple) on 10/22/13 at the age of 55. I was living on about 20-30% of one coronary artery and my left heart output was only 20% to 25%. I spent a week in the hospital after surgery and went home. Then had to go back a day later for another week because I had pneumonia. Finally a few days because of a slight arythmia. All told it has been about 2 1/2 weeks. I am past the cravings by now and only have the urges to contend with. I really don't suggest that anyone quits smoking using this technique though. I'll have to carry the scars from that day for the rest of my life. The large one down the center of my chest, and the ones from several "silent" infarctions. I came that close to the next world. Never again will I subject my body to that (at one point in my life I was smoking 5 packs of cigarillos a day). I now have to say N.O.P.E. (Not One Puff Ever) every day of my life. TheOldGoat-Joan, I miss you terribly my friend. Elder Lists Guilia's: (/blogs/Giulia-blog/2017/06/18/elders-list-ao-december-7-2016 ) or Smorgy's (Chronological Elder List)