I am doing well on this 11th day. Sleeping a lot, not a lot to do at home anymore. I have cleaned everything around me. Cold outside, still having problems thinking about the cigarettes, however, learning to think positive about not smoking. I lost a brother in December and his month is coming up on the 7th of January. The sad part is I had lost another brother 10 months prior. This is not an easy road for me, however it is a road that I must travel. I must say Thomas, Ellen and several others has been very supportive in giving positive advise. I look forward to visiting the site. I do not get enough adult time at my age so this site is a joy. I just read (I believe his name was Greg) he spoke of this site as a playground and that really brighten my day. A great way to look at this, now I smile and say I am going to the playground. I take away what I need and leave the rest. A little down today, this to shall pass. Enjoy your day and weekend stay warm.