I've been on here most of the morning reading about all the success stories but I just feel awful. I have never been one to feel sorry for myself but this dread I just can't shake today. I've smoked for over 40 years and have no idea what to do in place of it. It was a major part of my life and now what do I do? I can't eat another thing, hard candy has lost it's charm. I'm now wondering who I am? I'm no longer a smoker but it hasn't been ling enough to be a non-smoker. Lost identity? Maybe.